here I am

I'm in Perak now..suffering alone..waiii..I had move in with Li Nie and the others..geez..I'm having a single room all by myself..kinda scared..so have to on the light during sleep(fai's afraid of the dark??!)...LOL..it's not that I'm afraid of the dark..it's just the room is too empty..geez..need to buy some anime poster or something to cheer up the room's mood..LOL..by the way..I didn't have a comp here..so currently borrowing Li Nie's..have to wait another 2 month for my new laptop..haiz..so next week I'll start attending class..NOT AGAIN??? STUDYING??? geez..deal with it fai..our life just can't run from studying..man..I still hate studying a lot..hmmm..

So......

Yeah~ I had quite a pleasant say today..the sky was ocean blue..the sun shone brightly but not too hot..but still waking up is not an easy task for me..hehe..I was going to open a new bank account and ATM card for my University preparation..Ugh..I think I'm going to really miss my home..my mum's cook..my grandmother's nagging voice..shouting at my brother's bout his computer games..alas..gonna put all of that behind now..I'm going there on a mission..a mission of getting a degree for myself after struggling 12 years to get ahead of my studies in my school life..

School life was fun..the cheerful feeling of being surrounded by friends..the warm feeling of being closed to teachers..the confused feeling as a school prefect to caught others student as they violating the school rules..haha..I wouldn't forget that as long I shall live..sounded irony right? Fai's being emotional..==" (sarcasm?)

By the way..I'm still happy for all of my friends that will be continuing their studies..Omedeto~ (congratulation) hehe

Biochemistry then...

ok..the decision had been made..no more change of mind..hesitating..or questioning bout my own decision on how shall I face the world anymore..BIOCHEMISTRY..that's what I'm going to get my head in..the end..LOL
ehh..I like this lyrics a lot..hmmm..

~Welcome To My Life by Simple Plan~
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming


No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me


To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life


Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding


No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me


To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life


No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like


To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)


To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

p/s: Ugh..I do hope the letter of offer will arrive safely though..=="

"maybe I'm making a mistake here?! ==" should I take graphic design..which is what I want to do the most...or take biochemistry..which I also like but maybe will cause me long-term headache? LOL x.x"

err..okey..that's mine Facebook status today..ugh..my decision is being toyed and questioned again by my own self-conscious..damn it! How many time do I have to questioned my own decision? (9999 times perhaps?) LOL..that's me..I change my mind quite fast in everything that I have decided on my own..maybe I should just stick to my old choice and left the other one behind and try pursuing in another life time?! (how many life time do human have?) Geez..forgive me for babbling this nonsense..haha..funny..

the unpredictable Fai with her puny brain that doesn't stop questioning her own ability to survive in this catastrophic life on Earth! =="

back from Perak..

so the Perak trip (trip?!) was nice actually..everyone was being extremely nice to me..there's Li Nie (actually I know her from my primary school and she's the one that help me to apply for the UTAR admission), Ying ying, Xioa Zhi and Yong Jun (I think..I don't quite remember his name..==" not really care)..the girls treated me very nicely and concern bout my case..>.< I'm touched..==" I'm trying to write down every details in PAST TENSE here..ahaha

Night before..

Ugh..I had waited for the bus for almost 2 hours..it finally show up at 11pm..so I aboard the bus with Li Nie..I met Kak Z (my teakwondo senpai in secondary school) she was also headed to Perak..and the funny thing is she thought that Li Nie was my mum..ahaha..well Li Nie's tall but she don't look old to me..

Upon Arrival..

well..we arrive in Medan Gopeng at 5am..err..so there was no bus only taxi..geez..and taxi in the early morning cost RM50 to go to Kampar (siao..I can but an anime season with that..I thought bout that at that time ==") while the bus only cost RM4..oh well..we decided to take the taxi anyway..by the way..I can't sleep in the bus..quite wide awake the whole time..haha..==".. the taxi driver was nice..it took bout 40 mins for us to arrive at Li Nie's place..err..we encounter a buffalo on the road (what's a buffalo doing in the middle of the road early in the morning?) well..the taxi driver chase it away with the honking..piiii~..LOL

The 1st day..

Li Nie brought me to visit UTAR..well she ride me to UTAR on her motorcycle..haha..she ask me whether I had ride on a motorcycle before..od course I did!!! LOL..ahaha..she was patient enough to explain bout UTAR to me..she's so sweet..and not forget to mention she's a beauty actually..well of course she is..duhh..her bro is a bishounen..haha..ok..then she brought me to the Admission Department to buy the application form for RM10..she ask me think carefully before deciding on the course I'm taking..hehe..so the five course that I chose was: 

Biochemistry 

Biotech 

Chemical Engineering 

Graphic Design and Multimedia 

Accounting 

well..I took the whole night to figure that out..'haha'..seriously thinking..hmm...that evening..Li Nie brought me to Mian Dui Mian..err..it's a noodle shop..selling all noodles dishes..there's all kind of fried noodles and soup noodles..ok..so I order for soup noodle..LOL..kinda hungry..I met 2 of her friends there..don't remember their name..SORRY! I insisted to pay for my share but she refused to take it..=="..that night..I went to buy the bus ticket to go home..err..I had to go back on Thursday since all the Wednesday tickets had been sold out..=="..then Ying Ying and Li Nie took me to eat........err..again..sorry I forgot the name of the dish..it's some kind of rice and meat..they cooked in in a clay pot..and serve it like that..wow..the aroma was mouth-watering..no wonder Li Nie said that many people from everywhere came here just to try out that dish..so the biggest pot + 3 drinks only cost RM 23.50..huhu..

Second day..
I went to submit my application form with Li Nie..err..something unexpected happen..the secretary said that she needed to see my real result..luckily..I brought it here to Kampar..but didn't bring it to UTAR..so I had to go back to her place again..I'm really sorry that I had troubled her..haiz..she was facing her own trouble at that time..she might had to even quit her studies..but she was still willing to help me out..==" I'm worried bout her..so we had our lunch and this time I went back to UTAR with Ying Ying..haha..she offered to take me cause she had a talk that afternoon..so I finally..successfully submitted my application form..

The LAST day..
I woke up at 6.30 today..don't want to miss the bus of course! hehe..so Li Nie took me to the nearest bus station..she even bought me breakfast..I wanted to pay..but she insisted not to..=="..she was quite worried that I might get lost..LOL..I can already remember the road to Medan Gopeng..I tell her not to worry..so now I was finally home..safe and sound..I thanked Li Nie a lot..hehe..dunno what else I can do except that..like Malay said..terhutang budi..hehe

p/s: The secretary call me when I was on the bus..I can't even hear a thing..ugh..need to call her again to confirm..but one thing for sure..my application is approved..!!!..but I need to confirmed again to make sure..don't want to break my heart again..LOL..I REALLY WANTED TO TAKE PICTURE...BUT..............................=="

Wrong

seriously?! Ugh..I got the wrong schedule...so the trip (can it be call a TRIP?!) to Perak will be on tomorrow's night..Teacher Poh already phoned my mum to confirmed..and I'll still be going..still need to pack then..and some certificates need to be photocopy..haiz..I don't want to put my hope too high..it might ended up with disappointments..again..haiz..

I prepare lunch and dinner today..did the laundry..ALONE..without any help..since my brother was asleep the whole day..geez..he's been playing DoTA like nuts..falling head over heels with the game..ahaha..==" I don't quite understand that game..the strategies or so whatever..=="


"If you can't pass the impossible, 
you'll never get through it"
haha..that's the word of wisdom from Inazuma Eleven..I wonder if I got those words right =="

err..Perak? again?

geez..going to Perak again..I think..==" this is the second time I'm going to Perak by bus this year..haiz..it's my mother's friend..Teacher Poh..she invited me to go to her daughter's university..and see whether I can enroll or not..that's really kind of her..I should really thanks her when I see her next time..^^ so now..have to start packing..again..alas..lazy..==" so the bus will be on tomorrow night..not exactly know what time..have to wait for her call..ahaha..and I'll be back on Tuesday or Wednesday..hmm..so no need to pack too much..>.< I'm glad..

anyway..my mum's going to KL tomorrow..and her bus will be at 7am or 8am tomorrow..haha..so my brother gonna have to stay home with my grandmother..have to cook rice..etc etc..^^ hope that he can handle it..huhu..

p/s: I got rejected again by the Matrikulasi..ahaha..geez..how many time do I have to suffer through disappointment..geez..this just making my day even worse than the others..ahahaha..man..gonna try to live with that..!!!

aza aza fighting!
Gambatte ne!!! =]
(fai's trying to be positive)

Gardening

hehe..helped my mum and grandmather in the garden yesterday..going green! ^^ they decided to replant the plants in the garden..it had been years since the last time they change the soil..my mother said that the soil and the pot need to be change so that the plants can grow better..and the flower can bloom better..like changing to new clothes..haha..well I wished that I could take picture though..but..............geez...I really needed a new phone..!!! T_T anyway..I'll take some when I got a new phone..anyway..bout the soil..my mum bought it from the gardening shop..red-yellowish color..and got some from the garbage burning site at the back of our house..she said the soil from the burning place is suitable for the flowering plant..==" not sure why..nutritious? still..there were red ants attacks..haha..I destroyed their home..ok..not all but part of them were..==" sorry! they got me too..their bites..pain!! haiz..some people said that gardening help us to be calm..yeah..sort of..I think..==" I had fun..and tired so I slept well at night..haha

p/s: I found an interesting site..FanFiction.net..ahaha..fanfiction in English..and another one that I still like a lot..but it's in chinese though..Baidu.com..I read a lot of fanfiction before..because it's INTERESTING!!! and of also because I have leisure time..ahaha..nothing to do..^^ the authors are imaginative and creative..==" yea..quite imaginative.. 

singing help..duhh..

singing YEAH! LOL..help reduce tension..ahaha..>.< full of energy now...jumping around like a rubber ball..geez..I'm re-watching Cardcaptor Sakura again..and falling in love again with Touya..haha..and Yukito..they're too cute..LOL..Sakura-chan is too lovable..^^ so the holiday may be filled with my favorite anime..yeah!! and not to forget I'm still not done with my homework..alas..that can wait..I think! haha..it might end up like last year's homework..I'm doing it on the last day of the holiday..geez..burning midnight oil..and causing headache..ahaha..never mind..^^

hmm..the anime CD that are in my collection now:

-Ouran High school Host Club-
-Fruit Basket-
-Kaichou wa Maid-sama!-
-Code Geass-
-Code Geass R2-
-Cardcaptor Sakura-
-Rozen Maiden-
-Kobato-

haha..and yeah..only 8..==" gonna start collecting again..and yeah..there are CLAMP's artwork..>.< love CLAMP's..

and anime that I used to borrow from friends..or watch online..or on TV..completed:

Star Ocean EX
Blood+ (mel's ^^)
Vampire Knight S1+S2
Color Cloud Palace S1+S2
Spiral
D.N.Angle
Anglelic Layer
Black Cat
Fate Stay Night
Midori no Hibi
Negima Sensei
Shakugan no Shana
Loveless
La Corda D'oro
Shugo Chara
Chobits
xxxHolic S1+S2
Shaman King
Sousei No Aquarion
Kyo Kara Maoh! S1+S2+S3
Princess Princess
Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle S1+S2
Petite Princess Yucie

so some that aren't complete yet are:

Gundam Seed Destiny
Gundam 00
Naruto (of course!)
Inuyasha (also of course!)
Marchen Awaken Romance - M.A.R (still chasing)
Haruhi Suzumiya (==")
Jigoku Shoujo
Gakuen Alice
Samurai X
Prince of Tennis
Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha
Detective Conan (another of course ==")
Get Backers
Fullmetal Alchemist


==" still long way to go...haiz...dunno whether I lost anything on the list..ahaha..T_T